After being married 10yrs, then divorced, my ex wife and I made an attempt to patch things up and see if we could make it work again at the start of this year. Through some tough counseling sessions, good times and bad, the reality has come that we can't let go of the past to make it work again and have agreed to move on. Honestly, more from my side than hers.

We have two kids together, 8yr old boy and 10yr old girl, and have 50/50 custody and they have fared the whole divorce situation pretty well. Although we never moved back in together during this time while trying to reconcile, the kids kind of had it in their heads that mom and dad would be a family again. Not sure how I'm going to explain this to them. Just know that I'm feeling pretty low approaching the holiday here. Instead of feeling relieved like one might expect I'm more living in a blur again like I was with the divorce a few years ago.

I've been so unsure with this whole situation that I haven't spoken to hardly anyone about it over the last year. I just pray that my kids will be ok through this again and not be devastated. They're pretty much all that's keeping me going at this point.